Cake receipt

It is very simple and easy to make. If something goes wrong, the fault is yours and only yours.

Having a happy and without big problems life is very easy. You just need to mix all the ingredients and follow the instructions by the book, and voila! Everything will go right. Let’s go to the ingredients:

- 1 spoon of happy smiles

- 2 cups of patience

- 5 cups of understanding

- 1 ½ cup of kindness

- 1 glass of fun (it includes spot jokes)

- 25 self-help books

You may say:

― But Chef Florindo, I have followed this receipt and it was not succeeded. I WANT YOU TO BRING MY MONEY BACK!

But did you really do everything right? Did you mixed all the ingredients in the right way? Perhaps you may have forgotten an ingredient or you may have used it too much or to less as it was required.

Life is so simple but people are so suspicious thinking it is as complicated as to tie a knot in a drop of water. Life is like a cake receipt, and if you follow correctly the instructions, everything will go right and if something goes wrong... well... it is your fault because you did not follow it religiously.

― Oh, really? If people have followed theses instructions, we would have several happy people instead of selfish, frustrated and cranky ones.

Try to eat the cake when it is still hot or when it is not ready. It will not be good and do not you blame the cake. Everything has its time for happening, my friend. And once again you are not following the instructions! Do you remember the two cups of patience? They are missing in your cake.

― Glanotski, vratski, odubaye! (grumbling)

The cake receipts are absolutes. If something goes wrong, the fault is yours, only yours. Do not try to apologize. People are not crazy; there is a not unfriendly person. If somebody is crazy in here, this one is you! And if you want to know why you are crazy, buy my new book, in the bookstore closer to you!

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I need to tell a Secret to you. Actually, cake receipts are not absolutes, even though they work a lot of times. Sometimes the cake does not grow and I do not why. Perhaps there are really unfriendly people and they do not react to the heat. Well, I feed myself eating doubts.

Infanticide

And one more child had been killed. The media did not notify anything. These cases were quite ordinaries, not attracting people’s attention to it.

Once upon a time there was a society where children were not welcome. They did not have a long lifetime and they used to die a little everyday, in a slow and painful process. For many people, it was natural, like these “things of life” and in this society, it was expected everybody to turn out to be an infanticide. There were homicide infanticide and suicide infanticide people in it.

The homicide ones were the ones who used to kill the children. They were bitter, frustrated, sad and selfish people. They used to do it by destroying dreams, by acts or words. They used to say that happiness is an illusion and unhappiness is an inescapable destiny. They could not sketch out a smile and other’s happiness was considered offensive by them. And always they could, they used to trick someone and take some advantage of them.

There was sincerity in children. They used to say and behave the way they were feeling. There was bright on children’s eyes. They could see what was really beautiful. There was happiness in children. They could smile without great reasons. There was innocence in children. They used not to make friends for mere interest.

They have screamed: “The child is smiling, take out all its teeth! It must be one of us, an alive body with a died soul. It must grow up and become artificial just like all of us”.

The suicide infanticide ones saw all this nastiness and they could not find happiness in the society they lived. All these black clouds with bad feelings gave them two options: to die or to kill.

You decided to die. You would rather kill your child and spare it from the homicides. It was your last act of protection. And so you killed the child and yourself. You made it become and you turned out to be one more alive body with a died soul. Did not you really have any exit? Why did you kill the child inside you?

Hit me, I love it

Heart is a muscle brain can not control.

And I, a person who though that was immune to silly infatuations and able to choose when I would like to fall in love, have gotten a strong charm flu. My heart started to beat faster, my eyes started shining and I got a dreaming face.

People warned me saying that you were not good for me, but my heart asked me to ignore them. It told me they were green of envy because I was in love and they would like me to join their Unhappy Lonely Convicted People Group.

Today I want you, only you and nobody else. You have the essence I always was looking for. But hey, please, look at me!

You have looked at me and I overestimated any foolishness able to melt my butter heart. Everything you asked me I did without hesitating, the last thing I wanted was disappointing you. And when I had done it, I was afraid of losing you due to rubbish and because I could not show how important you are for me. I know I would never find someone as interesting as you.

People warned me that I was blind and that you did not feel anything special for me saying I was just another one. I have wondered in many ways of pleasing you and I felt in the top of the world when you used to say “cool”. There were people interested in me that tried to please me for me to notice them, but I asked them to leave me alone because my heart had already a owner. “You must love people who love you”, used to say the “jealous” people around me. But…

Je suis folle
Je m'abandonne
Mea culpa

And is it easy to choose the one we will fall in love with? Heart is a spoiled muscle that does not give up, no matter how it hurts.

Angst, frustration and the eternal fear of being alone invaded my soul when I saw you did not care about me. No matter how I tried to please you, I got nothing else than indifference. My heart only woke up from the trance and set my shackled self-love free when you started enjoying in seeing me making everything you wanted without hesitating, just like a obedient pet.

And then I woke up to give up. A person who when is not indifferent to me, want me to be act as if I were a pet definitely is not good for me.

Heart is a stupid muscle and tends to choose what is worse for it. It is a muscle that depreciates good things and overestimates bad things. It is a muscle able to make us lose the sense of what is ridiculous. It is a muscle that enjoys being dragged through the roasting and dirty roads of Guinea-Bissau.

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PS: Even though I wrote this post in 1st person, I am not living what I wrote.

Kaleidoscope

Is the person you really are (or the person you think you are) the same one people around you think you are?

Who am I? One day, a lot of people may have wondered about the person they are to answer to this question on Orkut, or because some situation made them to analyze the person they have been or they were.

There is not an exact answer to this question, but we can come close to an acceptable theory. It would be better developed by one who knows about oneself very well. What one likes and dislikes and knows how to recognize one’s own virtues and shortcomings.

And even if we had created a very true theory about the ones we are, what would be its value? Strangers create concepts about us right before trying to know us deeply. Only time and living together are able to show to them they might have been mistaken. Who is the one that have never met somebody and thought this one was unpleasant and then changed one’s mind when time showed to this person that that one was not the one you thought one were, or the opposite?

And our truer theory may not match with the people around us theory. One may think you are more or less intelligent you really are, funnier or less funny, more or less problematic, etc.

So, theories we create about who we are not only have a short validity (once we are always changing for better or worse) as they also may vary from one person to another. And so, who we are? Are we a different one from each one point of view? Or are we inside a kind of kaleidoscope, the same person saw just by different angles?

Feel the fear

They know about your desire of changing and getting something better but if you are afraid, they will use it against you.

Hey, little child. What is that defiance? Do you want to be hit by a sandal? Do you want to be grounding in your room? Keep behaving this way and you will not be allowed to watch TV and access the internet or I will lock you in a dark room.

Hey, woman. Who do you think you are talking to? I am the one who fund you, the kids and the bills in this house. How would be your life without me? You have no way to fund yourself. You have no way to fund the kids. They need a father to feed them and they would starve if you take care of them because you do not even have a job. You are coward, you are weak. You believe easily in the stories I tell you about everything being different. And do not you dare reporting me to the police or I will beat you up once again.

Hey, ordinary worker. Do you know who you are talking to? Since when do you think you have rights? I am the one who pay your salary so if you keep not behaving properly I will fire you. By the way, do you know how many people come here everyday leaving with us their résumés? Do you know how the job market is nowadays? What do you have to offer? Are you major in what, High School? I can hire more efficient and willing workers paying a shorter salary than yours. Work properly without complaining. And keep it on mind: if someday you leave us, and I do believe it will not be happen, you will need our references for being hired in your new job and we will enjoy telling how mediocre you are.

Hey, sinner. Do you think you can escape from the Lord Laws? Do you think you can hide all your sins from Him? You will not reach Heaven after dying. Dying is unavoidable and He will punish all the sinners throwing them into the Hell’s Fire. Do you really want to burn in the eternal flame? Do you want to feel His fury? Join us, we can save your soul. Convert yourself to our religion, pray, let your material goods behind and He will forgive you because he is merciful.

Hey, pseudo-socialist revolutionary. What do you think you are? What power do you think you have? I have powerful lawyers. I have gotten certificate after finishing college. I have the power to alienate your people with favors, popular shows and lies. They believe me. They may not trust on me but they always vote for me. Trying to show the truth to them. And do not you dare being against me or I may lose control. Keep behaving this way and I will ask someone to kill you.

Shut up! You are supposed to do what I say without making questions. You know you need me. You know you are nothing without me. I have nothing to lose but you do. You are too much coward to attempt changing something. You only dare defying me, but it is nothing more than this. I see fear and lack of self-confidence in your eyes. I see you are too much powerless to carry on with your threats.

Either you shut up and do the thinks in the way I want or dare, go ahead with your ridiculous threats. I want to see if you will have the courage to deal with the consequences. I want to see if you have the courage to change.